Feb 23, 2011

Shallow Emotions

When they show what seems to be warmth, joy, love and compassion it is more feigned than experienced and serves an ulterior motive. Outraged by insignificant matters, yet remaining unmoved and cold by what would upset a normal person. Since they are not genuine, neither are their promises.

Ohh, emotion is probably the best tool we have at our hands. A sociopath is extremely skilled at faking concern, love, hate, or any number of passions that we don't really feel. I'm sure a scientist would explain it as some sort of hormonal imbalance, or a therapist might explain it as a falsely hollow feeling, but the truth is, we don't really have hearts. We're emotionally removed from the world, so when a relative dies and we're 'stricken with grief,' we're probably off enjoying the day, or using the death as sympathy, or otherwise accessorizing the tragedy. While most people would truly spend the day at home grieving, we take the time to get a jump on making this look great for us. A sociopath might prepare a moving speech about the relative, plan get-togethers for everyone who might miss this person and need someone to talk to about the death. The speech would give the sociopath the appearance of a true depth of soul, and the get-togethers would allow the sociopath to expand their family connections, maybe make new connections or refurbish old connections.


A sociopath could also easily convince a difficult mate that (s)he loves the person, when no such feeling exists. If that mate returns the emotion, however, the sociopath can use that person like a sword. The sociopath first convinces the mate that the love is eternal and unconditional, and imitates all the romantic actions in stories and plays, then moves on to 'further the relationship' with vows of commitment and more romantic gestures. After a while, the mate becomes totally infatuated with the sociopath, and the sociopath now has a choice; use or abuse. Continuing to use the mate without feeding his/her belief in the love would be an abuse of the situation, but depending on how much effort the sociopath has already put into the faux relationship, there might still be a few years of use left in the mate before (s)he up and leaves. Full use of the mate would involve more permanent commitment, marriage and kids, and the need for a constant renewal of the passion the mate perceives in the relationship, but is often much more rewarding. If the mate truly believes in the integrity of the relationship, the sociopath can use the mate to much greater extremes, even involving the mate in the sociopath's schemes and abilities. This must be done with care, however, as most mates aren't sociopaths themselves and may encounter moral dilemmas in the sociopath's actions, compelling the mate to perhaps share such information with a friend, or worse, an authority figure.

6 comments:

  1. The older I get, the more I realize that I probably am a sociopath. I take personal offense to almost nothing (I don't mind being called fat - I am. I don't care if you like me unless I need you to. You get the idea.) but I am easily angered by general stupidity (road rage is a bit of a problem for me). My emotional states are basically 1) Amused, 2) Angry, or 3) None.

    I'm not afraid of things any more. This doesn't mean I'm stupid. I wouldn't go walking through a pit of vipers for shits and giggles. But in situations that should cause a fear response, I do a risk assessment rather than get sweaty. But I DO remember feeling afraid of so many things when I was a kid. I just don't completely remember what it felt like exactly.

    When I was a kid I had a big crush on a girl at school. Now I can barely manage to feel mild attachment to the girls I've dated. Even when it comes to family attachments, I know I don't love them like I used to any more. I could probably go the rest of my life without ever seeing any one of them ever again, and I don't think it would bother me at all.

    The thing is, I wasn't always like this. It's somehow progressive with me. I used to be hyper emotional and empathetic, and I still can closely relate to other people. The difference is that now, in spite of being able to understand how people feel, I don't share their feelings any more. I find myself "caring" out of habit more than anything.

    I've been on both ends of the spectrum, and for the most part, I have to say I prefer to be where I am now. But I do wish I could still feel happy about some of the things that don't seem to matter any more. I used to love swimming and riding my bike. I used to love just going out on for walks and reading books and all kinds of things. Now I don't mind those things, but they don't do anything for me either.

    I do have close friends right now, and I have (through great effort) managed to maintain a reasonably strong attachment to some of them. But now I see them less and less frequently. It's hard to describe how I feel about them... I never really miss them when they're gone. But when they're around, I never want them to leave. It's almost like I can feel through them in a way that I can't with most other people. When those certain people are around, I'm almost normal.

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  2. I find myself feeling nothing a lot of the times, I figured that maybe it was just my Bipolar Disorder acting up. But then the bad thoughts started rolling in. I think about hurting people, sometimes I get so mad at the animals I go to hit them and yell at them. I used to hurt them. At the time I thought I was just being a kid, just being stupid, but now that I think about it I remember getting a thrill out of it. I would swing animals around by their tails people would look at me like I was sick. At first I thought about it, but the more and more I thought about it, the less I cared.
    Now a days I find myself wondering if I actually love my boyfriend. At times there are these little glimpses of heaven that I feel love (at least I think it is love) but then later I just look at him and wonder what I am doing, I wonder why I am here. I never really talk about my true feelings. I normally tell people that they are just stories.
    More and more I am lead to believe that I am probably a psychopath my condition just getting worse and worse as I grow. I have always figured I was a little off by the way people looked at me or acted around me. It was something I could feel, kinda like a gut feeling.
    I seem to be able to read people fairly easily, I guess it is just another thing I can use against them, to tell if they believe something I say.
    As a child I had lots of issues, I would steal, lie, cheat, hell I still do. I just seem to deny deny deny. I have gotten to the point to where I even try to lie to myself and tell myself I am 'normal'. Seems like I am the only person I can't seem to trick.
    But hell I have just slowly started to except myself, I figured if I never take a bite of that forbidden fruit I can keep myself to just thoughts and not actions. But I also have had feelings of if I killed someone and went to prison I wouldn't care.
    I just wish that I could find a person to talk to that understands and that is like me. I want to understand myself. I wish I could feel things but it seems that almost all the time the feelings just brush over me like nothing happened.

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    1. Jakey, I am exactly like you. Also, I have been trying to find someone else like me to talk to so I can understand myself as well. It sucks knowing I'm different and there's no one else out there to relate to and help me figure out how to relate to other humans as if I am normal. Currently it is resorting to me being creepy and asking people, "How does that make you feel" in different situations ahaha. If possible, contact me: mihca101@gmail.com

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  3. What if you have shallow emotions about everyone but specific people, but for those people you feel genuine, strong emotions? What does that make you?

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  4. I'm still a kid (15) I like to cut up animals and I often can't get sexual gratification from normal porn and I currently masturbate to gore... Just please if anyone could tell me what to do it'd mean a lot.

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  5. I'm always be bored whenever i do something it makes me content like a drawing,sing,or listening music etc...but after a while I'm getting be easily to be bored as always and I don't know why... But I see the other people are not easily to be bored..and about my feelings... Yes i have but it's shallow,if I feel happy,sad,or liking someone... But it's not deep like the other feelings base of my observation from my friends and other persons, It's I'm just always have a feelings of blank and bored... I'm easily to get an interest of the people whenever I'm not interested from them, so i can play with them in emotion and charm to manipulate them and use them for a short need only because i don't want to see I am manipulate them and then if i see who persons i can trust I am staying with them if I'm bored to make me calm to not trying kill someone or animal because i like so much to play brutal but i don't do that because i don't want to go in jail, I am irresponsible yes because I don't care about responsibility it makes me sick more of our house rules... I'm angry loser too...I don't know why I have this...sorry for my wrong grammar I hope you understand my words lols... But all of this problem is have of someone sociopathy personality can you tell me this is the strong prove that i am a sociopath?

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